Have been going through lots of shit ever since I'm out of secondary school.
Before I'm in a relationship, I'm a crazy, talk-nonsense, happy-go-lucky person.
Now I'm partially like that too, maybe not as much as before.
I don't know why, but did I really change so much after all these shit happened?
Especially last year, I've been changing like 12345678987654321 times.
Last time, I used to go out with friends in big groups, occupy my Fridays and weekends with friends that I have totally no time for myself.
But nowadays, sometimes Fridays or Saturdays I'm staying at home, not going out.
Not really sure if people are getting busier, or I am becoming a boring person.
Friends would go out with their friends, or they would cancel meetings at the very last minute.
Although it's quite irritating, but I'm used to it already.
Thanks to my polytechnic humans, I'm learning how to "shoot" people back whenever I'm being "shoot".
I hope it prepares me for the army, where there are many fucking this type of people.
Not really good or bad, but they are just another type of friends.
Quite new to this culture because most of my friends wouldn't do such things.
Anyway it's another 2 weeks and I don't have to see this class anymore.
Really don't feel comfortable being with another half of the class.
I really can't communicate with them at all.
They are just a bunch of people who are obsessed and addicted or whatever shit, with studying.
I don't match well with such type of "all work but no play makes Jack a dull boy" people.
Maybe it's about horoscope or whatever shit.
Hope I will meet fun and caring people in the future! (:
Anyway, I just seen this about my Chinese zodiac downstairs my house.
Wonder if this would be true or not.
It says I would meet another half HAHAHA
I just don't want to meet someone like that girl again.
It's really like an atomic bomb of my life.
After it explodes, the bomb disappeared and I have to pick myself up pieces by pieces.
Even now, I'm still picking them one by one, but there's improvement. (:
I think you can see that my blog is less "emo" nowadays. (:
Anyway for my career, I feel like being a self employed, opening a small company of firm that does events management/tourism/music/business, either one of them.
I have to admit that I hate listening to people's instructions, I like doing things alone with my own pace and style.
I hate doing things and not getting the benefits instantly.
For example, I hate people telling me to study hard then I will be successful in the future.
I want the benefits now, or in the early future.
If i work hard now, I want the salary to come latest by the end of the month.
I hate being discipline.
I'm someone inconsistent, I slack like fuck and will do work like fuck, only if I'm interested in it.
And I'm really fickle minded.
I chose engineering as a stepping stone to university.
Then I want to do something else other than engineering.
So my results may be shitty in this course.
I really want to do something I like, because "When you work for something you love, you don't have to work a single day".
And sincerely, I really hate doing projects and redoing them.
I hate staying back after school.
Just another 2 weeks to end this semester.
Another 11 months to end final-year-project.
Another 1 year 1 month to end all these bullshit! (:
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