Last year was a bitter one, wasting my life day
by day.
Felt like a sick patient, lying on bed almost everyday.
I was so confused, don't where I'm heading to, don't care what I'm doing.
Was dragging my life to do almost everything and anything.
Yesterday went to the airport to fetch Benjamin back home from China.
Everyone came back and waiting to be graduated.
Saw her too, didn't really cared.
Then, I realise everyone around me is graduating soon.
All of them had achievements in their lives, except for me.
It was then that I realised that I could not afford to waste my life anymore, like how I wasted my 2012.
I realised that physical pain can be cured with the help of people and medicines.
But for emotional and psychological pain, we can only cure it ourselves.
No one will care about us, no one can see the pain, only we ourselves.
Although it's difficult, I really got no choice but to "shake" myself up and tell myself to 正经一点.
I can't be like this anymore, can't be like this forever.
Everyone is achieving something, so I should too.
I think I should start fulfilling my first new year resolution soon.
I should do whatever I want to do, whatever that makes me happy.
Maybe I'm not touching engineering anymore, because I'm not fitted for it.
Furthermore, it's really difficult to communicate with engineering people.
Maybe I should do music in the future.
I know it's not feasible in the society, I know I'm not talented, but at least it's something I'm passionate in.
Felt like a sick patient, lying on bed almost everyday.
I was so confused, don't where I'm heading to, don't care what I'm doing.
Was dragging my life to do almost everything and anything.
Yesterday went to the airport to fetch Benjamin back home from China.
Everyone came back and waiting to be graduated.
Saw her too, didn't really cared.
Then, I realise everyone around me is graduating soon.
All of them had achievements in their lives, except for me.
It was then that I realised that I could not afford to waste my life anymore, like how I wasted my 2012.
I realised that physical pain can be cured with the help of people and medicines.
But for emotional and psychological pain, we can only cure it ourselves.
No one will care about us, no one can see the pain, only we ourselves.
Although it's difficult, I really got no choice but to "shake" myself up and tell myself to 正经一点.
I can't be like this anymore, can't be like this forever.
Everyone is achieving something, so I should too.
I think I should start fulfilling my first new year resolution soon.
I should do whatever I want to do, whatever that makes me happy.
Maybe I'm not touching engineering anymore, because I'm not fitted for it.
Furthermore, it's really difficult to communicate with engineering people.
Maybe I should do music in the future.
I know it's not feasible in the society, I know I'm not talented, but at least it's something I'm passionate in.
I shall not think about the past anymore.
Let those beautiful memories fade away.
I had done my part as a good boyfriend for her, it's not my fault that she didn't appreciate it.
I'm not a perfect person, yet she wanted one.
She couldn't accept my imperfections, although I tried my best to fight for her back.
2012 was a torturous year, but I had learnt a lot of things from it.
I've learnt that we shouldn't depend on others for happiness.
I've learnt to be independent.
I've
learnt that everyone in this world is on their own.
I've seen the harsh and cruel side of the world.
May this year be a happy and fulfilling one.
I've seen the harsh and cruel side of the world.
May this year be a happy and fulfilling one.
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