Life is weird.

From now on, I'm not going to tweet "Just blogged" whenever I've blogged.

After all, I believe those who want to read it will read.

No use persuading anyone to read it, because I believe only those who truly cares would read.

Sometimes, I think life is weird.

When you let your guards down and be friendly with people, they may take your kindness as weakness and shoot you down.

When you let your guards up and be self-protective with people, they may see you as someone cold and over-defensive.

Honestly, I've been sick and tired of trying to balance these two points everyday.

Have to keep putting my "layer of wall" up and down when meeting different people.

And worse is others don't know what I've been through in the past, yet they may think I'm weird, two-sided or whatever shit.

If you don't know my past, then don't judge me.

I admit I've been through hell in 2012, and I'm slowly recovering since the start of 2013.

Guys would think I'm anti-social and cold.

Girls would think I'm weird.

The older generations would think I'm rude.

Everyone made me change the way how I see people.

Always thought that guys were fun people, one who I can really talk shit out with.

But I've learnt that they are competitive creatures who will step on others to get high up, and humiliate the weaker ones just for the fun of it.

Always thought that girls were gentle creatures who would always be appreciative and kind.

But I've learnt that they are opposite from what they seemed to be. 

The prettier they are, the more scheming they will be.

And if you treat them nicely, they would take you for granted.

If you treat them badly, you will be deemed as a bad boy.

I admit I'm somewhat stabilised from the ups and downs I've been through now.

I'm much stronger than before, and I know what I really want.

Sometimes, these little setbacks made me ponder, am I a good or bad person?

I really don't know because I'm me, and I don't know what other people sees me as.

Deep in my heart, I know I'm not weird, anti-social, creepy, rude or whatever shit.

Only I know best what I've been through.

It's not me being weird or whatever shit, it's just that I've learnt lessons in my life that changed me to who I am now.

If you really want to judge me, know me long enough before saying any shit.

To those who have always been there for me, I know who you are.
Thank you, and sorry for being like a robot everytime we meet.