Life is weird.

From now on, I'm not going to tweet "Just blogged" whenever I've blogged.

After all, I believe those who want to read it will read.

No use persuading anyone to read it, because I believe only those who truly cares would read.

Sometimes, I think life is weird.

When you let your guards down and be friendly with people, they may take your kindness as weakness and shoot you down.

When you let your guards up and be self-protective with people, they may see you as someone cold and over-defensive.

Honestly, I've been sick and tired of trying to balance these two points everyday.

Have to keep putting my "layer of wall" up and down when meeting different people.

And worse is others don't know what I've been through in the past, yet they may think I'm weird, two-sided or whatever shit.

If you don't know my past, then don't judge me.

I admit I've been through hell in 2012, and I'm slowly recovering since the start of 2013.

Guys would think I'm anti-social and cold.

Girls would think I'm weird.

The older generations would think I'm rude.

Everyone made me change the way how I see people.

Always thought that guys were fun people, one who I can really talk shit out with.

But I've learnt that they are competitive creatures who will step on others to get high up, and humiliate the weaker ones just for the fun of it.

Always thought that girls were gentle creatures who would always be appreciative and kind.

But I've learnt that they are opposite from what they seemed to be. 

The prettier they are, the more scheming they will be.

And if you treat them nicely, they would take you for granted.

If you treat them badly, you will be deemed as a bad boy.

I admit I'm somewhat stabilised from the ups and downs I've been through now.

I'm much stronger than before, and I know what I really want.

Sometimes, these little setbacks made me ponder, am I a good or bad person?

I really don't know because I'm me, and I don't know what other people sees me as.

Deep in my heart, I know I'm not weird, anti-social, creepy, rude or whatever shit.

Only I know best what I've been through.

It's not me being weird or whatever shit, it's just that I've learnt lessons in my life that changed me to who I am now.

If you really want to judge me, know me long enough before saying any shit.

To those who have always been there for me, I know who you are.
Thank you, and sorry for being like a robot everytime we meet.

Where I really belong?

It's been long since I ever write stuffs here again because nobody actually reads it.

Gonna post some rants today, so hope nobody gets offended.

Even if you're offended, I don't really care.

Sometimes I wonder, do I really belong here?

Living in Singapore for 20 years, I kind of think this place is actually quite fucked up.

Ever since young, I've been told to study hard for my future.

But I never knew the purpose of studying.

People used to told me that the China economy is rising, so we need to learn Mandarin well.

And they always said things would be very competitive during my time - which is now.

It's all true. Everyone is fighting to get accepted into universities, especially NTU and NUS.

But will those who graduated from them lead a better life?

We all had been brainwashed into believing that we need to fight for our opportunity to get into these two local universities, to the point there's a reverse psychology that some of us may even blame the two local universities for creating so much competition.

To me, I still think that education is unrealistic and unnecessary, yet important.

We are forced to study so hard just for a piece of certificate, which can't assure you that you will lead a royal life.

Furthermore, it's always those university graduates doing stupid stuffs such as adulteries and financial scams. 

It means that they have a higher IQ but a lower EQ, which is actually quite useless in this society.

ARGH!! I also hate seeing local universities students wearing so revealing.

And also those who clubs or drinks regularly during the weekends.

They are from Singapore top universities, so can't they be more decent?

If the top is already like that, I think the world is going to end very soon.

And in this land, things get overrated very easily.

Stuffs like Laoban, 4 fingers, Swee Choon, Cold Stone Creamery, Marble Slab, Koi, Everything With Fries, etc - gets popular among teens and tertiary students. But once you really try eating them, it's just so so only.

So everyone is just following the trend?

And local bloggers here with no specific talents gets popular for no reasons. 

Maybe just because they are good looking and everyone sees them as a city girl or city guy.

Finding a good relationship here is also fucking difficult.

Everyone has this 公主病 or 王子病, so they behave like as if they are princes and princesses.

Can't blame anyone because we are living in a city.

City dwellers have stucked up attitudes.

People tend to take things for granted, and they like to behave very "dao". - meaning pretend to ignore others because they think they are of a superior status then them.

And those with the "Those who have it, flaunt it" attitude, I totally despise them.

No use showing off your beauty and wealth, because you will still grow old in the future, and you can't bring money to your afterlife.

No use speaking in a foreign accent when you're just a Singaporean. It's actually fucking disgusting.

The some citizens here hate their own citizens too, which means they could just fucking start a civil war.

And the transport here is ...  I don't know what to say.

To summarise everything: 

The train is so fucking packed and it's fucking slow, takes so long to come.

The bus comes even slower than the train, and it's so fucking pack and jerky.

And some bus drivers are just fucked up too.

The taxis here are expensive like fuck. Just a ride could cost you a 3/4 salary of a part timer's day pay.

To buy a car here, we need to pay $100k COE price which is like don't know what to say.

It's like a first world country with second class transport facilities.

And last but not least is, the weather here is PURE SHIT!

Thanks for reading! (:

chee BYE!!